haunting

i want so badly to want again
to have the feeling of light in the head
stomach twisting excitement and nervous energy

to be able to see the potential in other people again
beyond the quick glance here and there

how did you move on so quickly
easily
without regret
effortlessly really

still i am haunted by you

of words you said
and i question the meaning
then and today

mostly though

i just want all to be well with you

and for your haunting to go away